The Remembering Part 2
3 Days of Darkness and Whoosh Moment
My only block to finishing my human karma(experiences) was one singular emotion of Fear I created when I was 4 1/2 yrs. old. I was attending church, living my best little amazing human life, when my Sunday School teacher told a table of 4-5-year-olds that we were all evil and sinners and that God was going to send us to Hell where we would burn to death for all eternity. Yikes! I instantly created a fear about this God being that I suppressed. Other kids at the table started crying, and the teacher told us that all we had to do was pray to take Yeshua into our hearts, and we wouldn’t die.
Of course, I prayed and every night I prayed this prayer at my bedroom window and hoped that God would hear me. I didn’t think someone so Big and angry would hear my tiny voice. I anchored this fear into my light body because of the amount of fear and attention I paid to it. Over many years, I got saved anytime there was a salvation call in church. I even got baptized twice and joined several churches. I just didn’t understand the lack of communication from God that I made it into Heaven.
Healing Key from School
In 2022, I was still in graduate classes, but these classes empowered me to be the Creator of my reality. Every class, I received a healing key from the instructor, and this key was one of the reasons my guides brought me to the school. I was in the middle of my Psychology Master’s class, writing an essay for my final exam, when I took a break, and the following happened.
January 29, 2023, While sitting in my recliner listening to music, I wondered why the God in Christianity is so hostile and angry. I saw in my head a man hitting a woman with a Bible in front of their two children. This is a metaphor for the fear-based narrative that religion has created. We were made in the image of love and light, Perfect. I will not get into the amount of information about the translation of scripture that contributes to religion. *Cindy has mentioned this in one of her videos about why religion was created. I will only address the emotion I created with the information given in the Sunday School class.
I created the emotion of fear when I was four years old due to the information told to me about dying, burning in a lake of fire, and being evil because of someone else’s sin, and this was massive for me. As I saw the images from this vision in my mind, the original Fear surfaced in my body, and I felt it heavy in my chest. I did what I did when I was little and tried to ignore it. I listened to my music, and then I went downstairs to be by my fiance(emotional support human). Nothing was working. My chest was so heavy with this fear, and so I excused myself and went to bed.
3 Days of Darkness
I lay there thinking about myself as a child and what my response would be to allow this fear to pass. Crying felt like the answer, and I began to cry A LOT. As I cried, I imagined myself as a child crying, and the tears came fast and hard. They felt old. I had been carrying this spiritual weight for over 45 years. I cried myself to sleep, which was the beginning of my three days of darkness.
This, which can be described as spiritual darkness, sat over me. I would use the term three days of stillness for realignment or a recalibration and movement into another higher frequency. It feels like a vibration of stillness. I woke up and cried the next morning and off and on during the day. My fiance drove us to the casino, and I just sat in a corner and listened to my music, trying not to visibly look as messed up as I felt. I stared into nothing.
I looked outside while we drove back and started noticing this reality felt different, but I was going through the motions of being human, eating, sleeping, and not thinking a lot. Upon returning home, I entered my office, stared out the window, and listened to music. I just existed. I felt every part of my body like never before. It was like I was seeing and feeling everything differently. One of the things I noticed was huge holes in my light body. I could feel my light body, which was a new feeling for me. It felt like Swiss cheese. I could feel these pockets of nothing that had previously been filled with fear I just purged. I felt exceptionally spiritually exhausted. It felt like my body was sitting in a chair, but my spirit was curled up on the ground like a ball. All of this took about two days.
The morning of the third day, I woke up indignant. I was going to get some DAMN answers. I meditated and called on the Source, angels, and my higher Self. I didn’t care who showed up but I would know the answers.
I used a guided meditation to call in my Spirit Guides. Ironically or not, this meditation was taped on January 11th. 111 synchronicity making another appearance in my life. I had hundreds of questions I was going to ask, and when this being of light who was in charge showed up, I forgot all of them as I stood in front of this being. I couldn’t put a thought together for some reason. The light being smiled at me and said, I know why you are here and grabbed my hands. Light began flowing from this being (who later I realized was my higher self) into my body. For about ten minutes, this light language flowed into me. That light being said, “This will help you remember,” and then they(my higher self) left my meditation.
A lady appeared in front of me. She was about 9ish feet tall and really pretty. I said to myself, remember the details. I started with her height; she had glowing skin with rays of light sparking from her skin, her dress was blue, and she had wings. So clearly, I was looking at an angel. Then, I began to seek information from her energy. She loves people, is creative, and wants to help everyone. At this point, I realized that this angel had my energetic signature. It was unmistakable, and I began to cry. She said, “Remember who you are, remember who you are!” and then disappeared. The rest of the day was just weird. Again, reality felt different.
I was sitting in stillness but observing it through a different lens. It was like I was a different me in a different vibrational frequency. The vibration felt lighter, and I was slightly comforted having received answers even though they were in light language. At the end of the day, a thought popped into my head. It was something I read in school, a quote about life. This person said that the first 100 years are the hardest. I laughed pretty hard just thinking about how true that saying was. I was 50 years into this life, and the moments keep coming. At that moment, though, I remembered how much I loved to laugh. It is my favorite feeling about being human. I went to bed feeling pretty good. This moment was crucial for me to finish my 3 days. Laughter is the highest form of love energy.
As it turns out, the person who said this is no longer human but living in All That Is. Later on, this person would reach out to give me a message to give to someone else. This process started communication between this person and me, which, in turn, led to some amazing revelations.
Whoosh Moment Commencing
February 1st, 2023. I woke up and went upstairs. The sun was shining, and there was snow on the ground. I hadn’t seen the sun in a while and felt terrific. I looked down at a plant I have by the front window, and I felt a strong LOVE in my heart for this plant, and I said aloud. “I LOVE you”! A voice in my head said,” remember who you are, remember who you are” and I thought, “I am LOVE”! Then it happened. An intense, seriously powerful energy began to stream through my body from above my head. I looked up and saw, with my physical eyes, glowing sparkly light, and it felt so good. It was love energy, and it filled me up. I could see different rays of light: one was gold, one was diamond, and one was a translucent sparkling type of light. Together, they made up all the light streaming into my body. I held up my arm, and I could see a layer of this light on me all around me. I giggled, grabbed the dog, and went outside.
I felt super giddy, unlike anything I had felt before on Earth. I stood in the corner of the yard staring at the house, and something felt finished. I waited. I was expecting something. What was it? Was the sky going to open? Was this reality going to be finished? I waited. I didn’t know anything except a strong feeling of finishing something. I thought to myself. This is what being a God feels like. I must have made the God-club. I wondered if anyone else had ever felt something like this. I felt complete and so powerful. I felt as if the entire reality I existed in before was in a different vibration, and now I was still seeing and living on Earth but at a different frequency. This euphoria continued for months. I barely had to feel a teeny bit of love in my heart, and my whole body got tingly.
I was experiencing my reality in a very different mode. Everything looked more colorful and brighter. I sensed energy in the air, water, trees, plants, and even people and my dog. How could I have missed all these observations? I felt awake, aware, and different. Then, the glimpses began to happen.
Ending note: The light I received from my higher self was information my subconscious had to convert iit to human language. I did get downloads of information over the next several months. The frequency I lived in felt good but strange, and I still didn’t understand why I was an Angel. What did that even mean? I was confused, and I had trouble accepting this information thoroughly. So I just put it to the side and would think about it every once in a while. I didn’t know what was going on until except for hints here and there from my intuition. A year later, I met some people about to go through the mini-great awakening process(spiritual graduation of mastery of Earth(the future 13th reality).
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